Just realized the last post I just did was the first non-protected post I’ve had in a looooonnnnnnggggggg time. Time to go public again – get back top side . . that is till I get lazy again LOL!

Considering the amount of crap I’ve had to deal with in the last 9 months I can finally say that I’m really starting to recover. It’s been one of the hardest periods in my life, and at the same time it’s been a blessing. Through my struggles I have discovered who my true friends are and I’ve been able to truly hear God again. It’s not like I want to be divorced, and it’s not like I want my marriage to be over but at the same time I have realized that I have been able to learn a lot from all of this. I’ve been able to figure out and rediscover myself but at the same time this is a long road. A very long road . . I still struggle some days but others I’m fine. I’m trying to find peace in my life and yet I’m just throwing myself into so many things so that I can feel like I’m alive. I need to throttle back, I need to chill . . . just enjoy. Maybe I’ll just ride the ol’ bike out for a day and just disappear for a while, give myself a day and just fly away. God please grant me peace in my life, please teach me how to just be.